Iowa (1999) /part two
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8. Me Inside
Giving in to what has got me
Feeling claustrophobic, scarred
Severed me from all emotion
Life is just too fucking hard
SNAP! Your face was all it took
Cuz this need ain't doin' me no good
Fall on my face, but can't you see?
This fucking life is KILLING ME!
Tearing me / Inside
Too far gone, I'm catatonic
Leaving you to criticize
Empty shell and running naked
All alone... lobotomized
Back and forth between my hang-ups
It isn't easy to be hated
Where do ya go? Whaddya do?
Simpleton, impromptu, crazy eight
I never cared, not once
Gotta get away!
Tearing me / Inside
I wasn't promised a thing
YOU KEEP MOCKING ME
But you will never again
BEFORE YOU KNOW IT - AFTER YOU'RE GONE
GONE
Somos feos apestamos y pero reinamos joto muthafucka
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9. Purity
Maze...psychopathic daze...I create this waste
Back away from tangents, on the verge of drastic
ways...can't escape this place...I deny your face
Sweat gets in my eyes, I think I'm slowly dying
Put me in a homemade cellar
Put me in a hole for shelter
Someone hear me please, all I see is hate
I can hardly breathe, and I can hardly take it
HANDS ON MY FACE OVER BEARING I CAN'T GET OUT
HANDS ON MY FACE OVER BEARING I CAN'T
Lost...ran at my own cost...hearing laughter, scoffed
Learning from the rush, detached from such and such
Bleak...all around me, weak...listening, incomplete
I am not a dog, but I'm the one your dogging
I am in a buried kennel
I have never felt so final
Someone find me please, losing all reserve
I am fucking gone, I think I'm fucking dying
HANDS ON MY FACE OVER BEARING I CAN'T GET OUT
HANDS ON MY FACE OVER BEARING I CAN'T
You all stare, but you'll never see
There is something inside me
You all stare, but you'll never see
There is something inside me
You all stare, but you'll never see
There is something inside me
You all stare, but you'll never see
There is something in you I despise
Cut me - show me - enter - I am
willing and able and never any danger to myself
Knowledge in my pain, knowledge in my pain
Or was my tolerance a phase?
Empathy, out of my way
I can't die
I can't die
I can't die
I can't... die
You all stare, but you'll never see
There is something inside me
You all stare, but you'll never see
There is something inside me
You all stare, but you'll never see
You all stare, but you'll never see
There is something in you I despise
Despise (2x)
Purity (8x)
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10. Liberate
Liberate - My madness
(One of me, all of you)
Liberate - My madness
I just want to...
Section off myself
Put a wall up/What the hell have I done
Keep the dog at bay
Survive by saving me!
Values and the game
Not a fuck-up - Not a part of your lie
I am one, I am all - I'm above and beyond!
Back off of the shit
Stand off or I'll spit
So soft, you forget
Your garbage in is garbage out
You don't give a shit
I won't play the fit
Get off, get on this
Your garbage in is garbage out
Liberate my madness...
Liberate - My madness
(One of me, all of you)
Liberate - My madnessv I just want to...
I am not ashamed
What is vital, isn't always humane
You can break in vain
But you can't break away
Even in my face
Lotta bullshit, not alotta the truth
I can't see from here
But I can smell your fear
Back off of the shit
Stand off or I'll spit
So soft, you forget
Your garbage in is garbage out
You don't give a shit
I won't play the fit
Get off, get on this
Your garbage in is garbage out
Saved - You're such a slave - I don't expect a
Name - You don't care - I wasn't witness -
I can't be a part of a system such as this
Hard eyes - Glow right - In my - Darkness - Again
With the sickness, rengade blisters, sisters,
Salivate, litigate, liberate, madness, sadness
Fuck this - How long have I had this?
I don't need this - Outta my business
Insert, engage, betrayed, MY GOD
FRAUD
Liberate - My madness
(One of me, all of you)
Liberate - My madness
I just want to...
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11. Prosthetics
Even if you run... I will find you
I decided I wanted you
Now I know...I NEED
If you can't be bought, tougher than I thought
Keep in mind - I am with you
Never left out fate, can't concentrate
Even if you run...
YOU WILL BE MINE!
Ah, fucking you will be mine!
Ah, fucking you will be mine!
Ah, fucking you will be mine!
I FOUND YOU
Leanin' out of an open window
You laughed (my fingers clenched)
Too perfect, far too careless
I couldn't help myself - I just took you
DAMMIT MAN I KNEW IT WAS A MISTAKE (You brought it outta me)
Better make yourself at home
You're here to stay
You won't bother me...If you let me bother you
All the doors are locked, all the windows shut
KEEP IN MIND - I watch you
Never leave my side, never leave me, fucker
Even if you run
What the fuck is different? Man, I can't believe I'm doin' this
DAMMIT MAN I KNEW IT WAS A MISTAKE (You brought it outta me)
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12. No Life
My freedom is best
Whole country's on house arrest
And everyone's a suspect
You can't feel the flow because you died
Face down on a "suicide"
The muthafucker's on self-destruct
Nobody guardin' your back, it's all a front
SAVE THIS! MY RAGE IS BLISS!
I'M TAKIN' NAMES AND GETTIN' PISSED!
Where's Chuck D when ya need him?
You ain't shit, just a puddle on the
Bed spread
The maniac psycho
Cool j screamed the shit
But I still can't believe it
Man, it's funny that you scare me so
Just enough to fuck me up again and again
Hard life is hard as hell
Better back the fuck on up
Cuz this is...
No kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(I've got to get out!)
It's no kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(You can't blame me!)
Can't be real no more - Your mask is skin and bone
Savor every flavor you want cuz it's not your own
Bad-ass at bat, man
Forget about the battle, it's the war we gotta win
Breathe! Amer-cult, Breathe! One more - Seethe!
Freak like you gotta pair
Won't be my fault
When you're painted in the corner of a no-good life
This is...
No kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(I've got to get out!)
It's no kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(You can't blame me!)
I can't remember, I don't understand,
Is it malice that makes you this way?
Carry it with you 'til someone forgives you
I laugh cuz there's nothing to say
YOU CAN'T BEGIN TO CONSIDER THE
PALPABLE HATE IN THE AIR WHEN YOU'RE HERE
None of us wonder what weather you're under
You're making it perfectly clear!
Lights ain't on - shit ain't right
Never had peace so I had to fight
Can you look in my eyes when my back's against
The wall, slash at my eyes, surprise, you'll never get me
You're all reality and sound bites
And the freedom is never in plain sight
The feelings, the question, the price is too
Human, for fucking sake - This is...
No kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(I've got to get out!)
It's no kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(You can't blame me!)
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13. Diluted
I'm cold, I'm ugly
I'm always confused by everything
I can stare into a thousand eyes
But every smile hides a bold-faced lie
It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes
My heros are dead, they died in my head
Thin out the herd, squeeze out the pain
Something inside me has opened up again
Thoughts of me exemplified
All the little flaws I have denied
Forget today, forget whatever happened
Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies
I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe
What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?
I save all the bullets from ignorant minds
Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind
Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens
I decrease, while my symptoms increase
God what the fuck is wrong
You act like you knew it all along
Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing
All I ever wanted out of you was
something you could never be
Now take a real good look at
What you've fucking done to me
Gimme any reason why I'd need you, boy
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
Gimme any reason why I'd need you, bitch
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
I see you in me
I keep my scars from prying eyes
Incapable of ever knowing why
Somebody breathe, I've got to have an answer
Why am I so fascinated by
bigger pictures, better things
But I don't care what you think
You'll never understand me
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14. Only One
Pain - made to order
I'm not the second coming, I'm the first wave
Better get an army, cuz the fire left me unscathed
You betcha bottom dollar I'm the top of the shit pile
So stick around cuz I'll get to you in just a few
Step off the achtung, get back or get stung
Idiotic sense of yourself, are you that dumb?
Entire legion of me, totalitarian
The one and only muthafucka, top of the world man
Cuz I can't stand it, planned it, gonna crash land it
In other words, consider me branded
Another version of me, another version of you
Both barrels - what you gonna do?
All I hear is human noise
You made your own fuckin' choice
I belong to only me
Silence for my revelry
I can over die over time
Filthy hands, stay away from mine
Every reason is a right to hate
Painful clutch - death is fine, gimme mine
Only one of us walks away
Somebody explain this
You don't care cuz you don't exist
What the fuck is this another joke?
Reckoning!
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15. Scissors
I play doctor for five minutes flat
Before I cut my heart open...and let the air out
Three bugs, a pound of dust
Some wind spilled before me
In the strangest manner that had
Broke away my tear spout
AS I LIE THERE
WITH MY TONGUE SPREAD WIDE OPEN
A BLACK WIDOW HAD OFFERED ME
A SWEETHEART TUBE
AS I INJECTED
THE CANDIED HEART THAT I SELECTED
She said don't hesitate
JUST DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO!!
It's hard to stay between the lines of skin
Just cuz I have nerves, don't mean that I can feel
I wasn't very much fun to be with anyway
Just let the blood run red CUZ I CAN'T FEEL!
Biding my time until the time is right
Biding my time until the time is right
Biding my time until the time is right
Biding my time...
It's time
IT IS - TIME
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16. Eyeore (hidden track)
Meet the man that made me
Greet the can I came from
Oh the fucking sacred heart of Jesus
BLEW it in the back room
Feelin' like a real goon
Slam the fuck aside, man
I'M ON - YOU'RE NOT
I AM THE GREAT BIG MOUTH
Good riddance - though I'm sad to say
I didn't get to kill you
Rhetoric - Better look both ways
I gotta get an arm through
STAIN
What the fuck is up? Get the fuck away
Run if you want to
Innocent? You're a guilty conscience
Laugh last - break through
STAIN
Prepare you fucker
I don't give a shit, bitch
I don't give a fuck, bitch
I don't understand, bitch
You don't matter
I don't give a fuck, man
I don't give a shit, man
I don't really care, man
I'm the super sized man